On top of being lazy and still looking for a job, I also realized that over the last year or so I have actually hated the shit out of drawing.
It took me a surprisingly long time to figure this out!!
It kinda hit me when I realized that I would look for any excuse not to draw, how I would sometimes literally work on something for a few minutes a day and then go and play video games. It doesn't help that I'm obsessive compulsive, and often check over the same thing over and over again. I also save. MILLIONS OF TIMES. It's a serious problem, even back when I was like 8 I would save my pokemon file a crap load of times before turning it off.
Recently, I have been thinking about how important it is that you have fun while drawing. Lots of people have probably been through this, right? I will change my attitude towards drawing, and I'll try to have more fun and not get caught up in excessive planning. If you're having trouble drawing, then have a long hard think about who you're drawing for and why, and whether or not you're enjoying yourself. And if you're hating it, then be honest with yourself and admit it! That doesn't mean you have to give up. Just try doing things differently.